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Tuesday, September 14, 2010

some thoughts...

Ok so I know I said we would talk about potty training today but I need to get some things off my chest...

I am a stuffer.  By this I mean that I tend to stuff my feelings down inside instead of saying what I am really thinking.  I always have so many things that I want to say, but when it comes down to it, my will to keep the peace seems to override my will to speak my mind.  The problem with this I suppose is that I am also somewhat of a passive aggressive personality.  I can only bottle for so long before I let it all go...not a pretty sight I would guess...

I have never been good with comebacks either.  I will think of the most incredible things to say...long after the confrontation or conversation is over. I can sit and play out the entire situation in my head and everything that I would say, but I never have those things in my back pocket to just throw out there on a whim... nope I am the one that just sits there dumbfounded at the person with my jaw hanging to the ground and says..."well, well,!"

I have a lot on my mind today.

I went to the first session of the Beth Moore Bible Study on Esther last night.  It is going to be fantastic.  Just like Esther I feel like this study is "for such a time as this".  I don't typically put a lot of scripture in my blog.  Not necessarily on purpose, it just isn't what I typically write about it.  There was a scripture last night that jumped out at me.  It's found in Ephesians 1:11--'Even when we're blind to the evidence, God, "works out everything in conformity with the purpose of His will."' Beth talks about how the book of Esther never once mentions God. In all of my years as a Christ Follower, I never noticed that.  I guess I just assumed that God was present and didn't have to be mentioned for you to know that He was the one working in that great story in the Bible...

Wow! Even when it seems that God is nowhere in sight, that everything that possibly could go wrong does...even when it is not evident that God is there...HE IS!! I am right now trying to learn this theology... God help me to learn it quick so we can move on!! :0)

Well, there are hundreds, probably thousands more things I could say I said, a LOT on my mind, but I will stop for now.

Trusting God for His promises today...

Thanks for stopping by!

Crazy Mom, Crazy Wife, Crazy Life

Wendy Jo


  1. Beth Moore's studies are incredible. I did the one on Esther years ago. The Fruits of the Spirit is also a really good one. I am just like you---passive-aggressive, bottle things up until I explode, and only think of good things to say AFTER the fact. I'm getting much better about standing up for myself, though--I guess I've been walked on one too many times. =)
    Love ya!

  2. everything you wrote today also described me....thanks for the uplifting scripture!

    Christina A.

  3. Well unlike you I am not passive, in fact I am very explosive...but I am learning to be more passive, forgiving, nonjudgemental mostly with the ones that live in MY HOME! Whenever I feel that their is no repair, no way to happiness. I remember that very verse and others that eally remind me that none of this "Crap" for lack of a better word has taken God by surprise. So if he has allowed it he will see me throught. ALL things work for good for those that love him and are Called according to His purpose. The interesting thing is that I always thought it said those that live according to His purpose. So I would lose hope and said well I/he mest up and we didn't do the right thing, so God's not in this...but it ways to those who are CALLED according to His purpose. I think that changes everything and definately gives me hope and motivation to know, we will make it because he still loves us inspite and dispite our bad choices. Love you girl!

  4. Sonia Figueroa-PaganSeptember 14, 2010 at 4:49 PM

    At your age, I too would think of the best come backs after the matter. However, with time, wisdom and experience I now know without a doubt that when I need to say something about anything, it is He who speaks through me, and for me, as He did with Abraham and Moses.
    It seems there are certain lessons that can only be learned with time and experience. So don't be so hard on yourself, remember He who calls also equips. Therefore, you have everything you need to be the best servant, wife and mom!
    Love you!